Coldness

I sit here with close eyes

With the coldness within me

I hear everything and listen to nothing.

The coldness within me is so cold

That it is freezing the emotions that I withhold in me.

I lack the sense of being

I lack the sense of love

Yes I have become someone that I am not!

I have learned to be hard and

Stone—like!

You have distorted me!

You have caused me to be someone that I am not

My laughter is gone

Within the coldness I have become a stranger to myself

There is no more

“Masti—Vershi” that use to live and dream

Now there is no one to understand me!

When I look in my heart

I see hate

And

I see disappointment

And

I see a girl who cries to be release!

And

I can’t release her!

Because you have locked her!

You have taken away her trust and sense of self

She is all alone with nothing but

Tears

That girl is not the one who was known for her innocent tricks

Tears have over taken “masti—vershi”

She lives in a world unknown to her

In the coldness

“Vershi” is lost!

Within the coldness a warm

Little girl is lost—and has become “Anjaani” stranger to all

Yes the coldness give by you have taken over

“masti—vershi”